Happy Thanksgiving!
I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful husband, of 7 1/2 years, who works so hard to provide for our family. My two wonderful boys. Malakhi who is 3 1/2 years old and what a wonderful gift he is. He truly is my "messenger of God." Mateo who is almost 2 years old. Oh how he has grown the last 2 months. He is my "gift from God." He has gone from saying 6 words to saying too many for me to count. I'm thankful for the job God gave for a month to work with a wonderful person who has now gone home to be with Jesus and her Daddy. I'm thankful for the Christmas season to be home with my boys. I'm thankful for my parents who have always been there for me and for my in-law's who are also there for me. I'm thankful for my sister who loves Jesus so much. I'm thankful for the home I live in and the food I eat. I'm thankful to all my friends who are there for me at the drop of a hat. I'm thankful for the business that was given to Lonnie and I. I'm thankful for the unknown, even though honestly the unknown is very scary, I know that God is in control. I'm thankful for my happy times and my sad times. I'm thankful to the God who gives and takes away. I'm thankful for the trials that I grow in. I'm thankful for the opportunity to praise God in ALL situations. So again with so much more to be thankful for...
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
Pando Love
5/2013
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Don't have a title
I guess it's been a long time since I've updated on here. Well a lot is going on. As far as weight loss. Nothing worked. I'm praying I can get insurance soon so I can go to the dr. and find out why I'm not losing weight.
As far as Malakhi goes we went through a lot of testing to find out why he was not growing. He had blood work and xrays done and it all came back normal. About a week after we had all the testing done he grew 2 or 3 inches and gained 3lbs. I was very impressed. I felt bad for making him go through all that testing but God worked a miracle and he's just fine.
Now we are here with Mateo. He is starting evaluations for possible high functioning autism. He has delayed speech and regressed speech. There are several words he used to say like "nigh-nigh" "bye-bye" "out" and "poo-poo." He does however say other words. He says "Papa" "ball" "aqua" "cheese" "cookie" oh and I cant forget he tries to say "toy story." He has been throwing huge temper tantrums and yesterday had a complete meltdown when Malakhi and I were singing to a certain song. He started holding his ears, rocking, banging his head, screaming, and hitting me until we stopped. It was so strange. I've never seen him do that before. I tried it again later and he did the same thing. He also has poor eye contact. Then I look at him with other kids and it seems like most of the time he's playing with them so I really don't know what to think. I'm waiting for IRC to call me back for our first evaluation appt. We shall see.
Lonnie and i started a new business and we are praying it takes off soon. I'm supposed to be starting back to work this week to get some extra money but so far I've been called off everyday. Yes I am happy I get to stay home with my boys but we are also counting on this money. I just hope and pray that the business takes off so I can be home full time again.
My mom has passed the first process of a transplant. She passed the Kaiser screening and is moving on to the National Transplant Committee. Now we are praying things move along quickly.
I guess that's all for now from the Pando family.
As far as Malakhi goes we went through a lot of testing to find out why he was not growing. He had blood work and xrays done and it all came back normal. About a week after we had all the testing done he grew 2 or 3 inches and gained 3lbs. I was very impressed. I felt bad for making him go through all that testing but God worked a miracle and he's just fine.
Now we are here with Mateo. He is starting evaluations for possible high functioning autism. He has delayed speech and regressed speech. There are several words he used to say like "nigh-nigh" "bye-bye" "out" and "poo-poo." He does however say other words. He says "Papa" "ball" "aqua" "cheese" "cookie" oh and I cant forget he tries to say "toy story." He has been throwing huge temper tantrums and yesterday had a complete meltdown when Malakhi and I were singing to a certain song. He started holding his ears, rocking, banging his head, screaming, and hitting me until we stopped. It was so strange. I've never seen him do that before. I tried it again later and he did the same thing. He also has poor eye contact. Then I look at him with other kids and it seems like most of the time he's playing with them so I really don't know what to think. I'm waiting for IRC to call me back for our first evaluation appt. We shall see.
Lonnie and i started a new business and we are praying it takes off soon. I'm supposed to be starting back to work this week to get some extra money but so far I've been called off everyday. Yes I am happy I get to stay home with my boys but we are also counting on this money. I just hope and pray that the business takes off so I can be home full time again.
My mom has passed the first process of a transplant. She passed the Kaiser screening and is moving on to the National Transplant Committee. Now we are praying things move along quickly.
I guess that's all for now from the Pando family.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Harvest Ramblings
Just when I think, oh I don't know what I think anymore. I thought I had gotten over my miscarriages but listening to Harvest tonight has changed my mind. Just listening to Steven Curtis Chapman sing about his precious Maria and actually sing Blessed Be Your Name. My heart ached. So many times I've heard the song and changed the station. I've asked Lonnie not to play it at church. God you give and take away? Why would you give me my babies and take them away.
Yes,I have 2 wonderful sons He has let me raise for His kingdom but He has 3 of my babies with Him and why? Ok, so if Steven Curtis Chapman can, after 2 months of losing his Maria, sing the song he wrote for her; and then tonight so boldly sing Blessed Be Your Name, You give and take away, why can't I? I still can't sing the song without bawling my eyes out. I can hear it now but I still cry. How am I supposed to sing this to a congregation without completely losing it? Lord, are you asking me to sing this? Am I supposed to say "Blessed be Your name" when I'm still hurting?
Why am I still hurting? It's been almost 4 years since the second miscarriage. August 16 will be 4 years and I still hurt. I still have anger in my heart. My walk has not been the same...God, I'm sooooo sorry. I'm pouring my heart out to you right now. I'm still angry! I'm still hurting! I'm still wondering why, WHY?!
I hear I'm supposed to be homesick for heaven but that scares me. I don't want to part from my family. I want us to be forever connected. I know we will all be in heaven together, I do know that but will my husband be my husband? No, you will. Lord help me to acknowledge the feelings I have and the confusion I feel. To feel...Lord, I need to make you my first love again, I need to come back to the foot of the cross, where I was so close to You.
God, I am homesick for you. I am homesick for the place you are making just for me. To see You face to face, to worship you ALL the time with ALL my heart. Lord to make you my all in all. I love you Jesus! Thank you for how wonderful you are and all you do for me. Lord, I want to be a bond servant for You. I want to live my life worshiping my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. He knows how I feel. He died. God the father had to turn His back on His son when He took on all our sins! Of course he knows how I feel. He suffered more than me. Lord, I want to give You my hurt and my anger! I'm done. I'm ready to move forward.
I know this is going to be a day to day battle. I know it's not going to happen overnight and I know I will always miss my babies. I also know that He is in control!
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is I need to re-commit my life to Christ tonight, every night, every morning, every afternoon, every hour, every minute, every second. Lord, I want to live for you alone.
Yes,I have 2 wonderful sons He has let me raise for His kingdom but He has 3 of my babies with Him and why? Ok, so if Steven Curtis Chapman can, after 2 months of losing his Maria, sing the song he wrote for her; and then tonight so boldly sing Blessed Be Your Name, You give and take away, why can't I? I still can't sing the song without bawling my eyes out. I can hear it now but I still cry. How am I supposed to sing this to a congregation without completely losing it? Lord, are you asking me to sing this? Am I supposed to say "Blessed be Your name" when I'm still hurting?
Why am I still hurting? It's been almost 4 years since the second miscarriage. August 16 will be 4 years and I still hurt. I still have anger in my heart. My walk has not been the same...God, I'm sooooo sorry. I'm pouring my heart out to you right now. I'm still angry! I'm still hurting! I'm still wondering why, WHY?!
I hear I'm supposed to be homesick for heaven but that scares me. I don't want to part from my family. I want us to be forever connected. I know we will all be in heaven together, I do know that but will my husband be my husband? No, you will. Lord help me to acknowledge the feelings I have and the confusion I feel. To feel...Lord, I need to make you my first love again, I need to come back to the foot of the cross, where I was so close to You.
God, I am homesick for you. I am homesick for the place you are making just for me. To see You face to face, to worship you ALL the time with ALL my heart. Lord to make you my all in all. I love you Jesus! Thank you for how wonderful you are and all you do for me. Lord, I want to be a bond servant for You. I want to live my life worshiping my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. He knows how I feel. He died. God the father had to turn His back on His son when He took on all our sins! Of course he knows how I feel. He suffered more than me. Lord, I want to give You my hurt and my anger! I'm done. I'm ready to move forward.
I know this is going to be a day to day battle. I know it's not going to happen overnight and I know I will always miss my babies. I also know that He is in control!
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is I need to re-commit my life to Christ tonight, every night, every morning, every afternoon, every hour, every minute, every second. Lord, I want to live for you alone.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
lighter post
OK, onto a lighter post. I love listening to other people talk. One person is trying to say one thing while the other is thinking they mean something else. I'm sitting here listening knowing exactly what each person is talking about and they are going back and forth in this conversation trying to figure out what eachother are talking about. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Weight Loss Part 3 or 4
Ok. VERY frustrated. I'm not losing weight. I've been doing this for 4 weeks now. I just got really serious about it a week ago but have still not lost any weight. I'm doing 20 minutes of circuit training with jillian michaels on the 30 day shred and still nothing! I'm also swimming, walking and using biggest loser video game. UUUGGGGG!!!!!!!! I am still at 224! When will I see results???? I just don't understand. I've also lowered my calorie intake to 1600 calories. I'm trying hard. I'm going to try harder I guess. Lord, give me the strength to get my life back in order.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
UUUUGGGGG!!!!!
Okay just a vent to say I'm getting very discouraged. I've only lost a few pounds since I started this diet and I'm so sad. I tried so hard. I'm not giving up I'm pushing harder. I just want to see results!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Exercise Update 7/21/10
So Monday I got the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. Wow what a work out. So on Monday I went swimming for an hour which most was actually swimming and exercising and the rest was chasing the kids around the pool. Then came home and did 30 Day Shred and then my biggest loser challenge. Tuesday I went for a morning walk for 20 minutes with Lonnie, did 30 Day Shred and Biggest Loser. Today I have done 30 Day Shred and am going to do more abs and then do some of the Biggest Loser a little later. I can't report any more weight loss at this time I am sorry to say which is why I have changed tactics. I'm also counting calories thanks to my calorie counter app on my phone. I have however lost 5 pounds in the last 3 weeks so I hope I lose a whole lot more very soon. I just keep trying.
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