Lonnie and I just celebrated our 10 year wedding anniversary on Friday.  I'm so blessed to have him in my life.  He has loved me through thick and thin, in sickness and in health, for better or worse. 

Friday, we went up to a local Bed and Breakfast in Idyllwild.  When we first got there it was so hot.  We didn't know how we were going to survive the weekend up there.  I ordered the romantic package getaway which included sparkling cider, and a gift certificate to dinner at a restaurant.  We went to the restaurant that night as it was our actual anniversary.  The certificate was for $60.  Our meal came to $55.  We are not fancy people but this was known as a fancy restaurant to where we even had reservations.  Neither one of us were very impressed though.  I guess we are Del Taco people. lol  However after we were there, I read Lonnie a renewal of vows I had written. (I will post those at the bottom.) After we left there, we went to a little grocery store and got some waters.  We went back to the B&B and it was still super hot so we didn't sleep very well. Oh well, good night. Hoping for a better tomorrow.

Saturday was fun/interesting.  Good morning, breakfast time.  We has waffles with berries, blueberry muffins, chicken and apple sausage, and yogurt.  We went to Cabazon outlets and walked around for a couple hours.  Then we went to lunch at A&W.  After that we drove to Palm Springs for the tram.  It was so much fun and scary all at the same time.  Definantely  not what I thought.  I didn't realize how steep it was.  It was worth it though.  We didn't do any hiking as I was very sore from walking around Cabazon.  We walked around inside the museum and gift shops.  We watched the 2 movies they played and just enjoyed being together.  After about 2 hours we came back down the hill.  We decided to drive around  Palm Springs to see what we could do. Didn't find much to do except...you guessed it...Del Taco.  Oh, we went through the drive thru and headed back up to Idyllwild.  We had dinner in our room and a relaxing evening.  The room was much cooler that night so we were able to get the sleep we needed.  I woke up a few times because my bronchitis/pneumonia started to get worse but for the most part the night went smoothly.

Sunday morning we woke up a few minutes before our knock on the door for breakfast in bed.  It was included in our romantic package getaway.  They brought a quiche casserole, sausage links, and a banana muffin.  So yummy!  We got ready to go and headed down the hill, back to life, back to reality and responsibility.  

I love my life.  I love my husband.  I love my kids.  I love my home.  I was grateful for a break from reality but was thankful to be back home too.

I Becky keep you Lonnie as my husband.  We were bound together in marriage 10 years ago and I have grown more and more in love with you as the days go by.  We've been through so much in our marriage.  We've bought a house, helped run a store, dealt with family issues, helped friends through problems, heard you tell me you didn't want kids, suffered the loss of family members, had to say goodbye to sweet babies, welcomed our sons, bought a van, loss of a business, new job celebrations, reaching our goal of me being a stay at home mom, losing our home, finding a decent new home, and learning more and new things about each other.  My darling husband, we would not be where we are today without the love of our Lord and King.  I thank Him for you everyday and for all the joys and sorrows we've been through.  He is making a new creation in us all the time.  I embrace today, 10 years later, to be built up in Him.  To honor Him by honoring you.  I want you to know that I love you so much and want to put God more at the front of our marriage.  To make Him Lord of our lives in EVERYTHING we do.  I love you Lonnie Pando.  Thank you for marrying me 10 years ago and sticking with me all this time.

Wow, over a year!  I can't believe I got out of posting.  So, so much has happened.  I think around the time of my last post is when things finally started taking shape with my health and things were finally discovered, or at least started to be discovered.  First though, I will give an update on my family.

Lonnie is an amazing man.  He is working full time and very hard.  He works grave yards so it's super hard on him but he's a trooper.  He also does computer work on the side.  He is playing for the worship team at church off and on.  He loves the Lord so so much.  He has led our family and continues everyday to lead us in the way God would have him.  I don't have enough words to express how much I love him.

Malakhi is almost 6.  He started and finished Kindergarten this year.  He did so good.  He wants to push through 1st grade math over the summer.  He wants to start 2nd grad math at the beginning of next school year.  We will see if we can do it.  He loves homeschool and does wonderful things.  Struggling a little with reading but he just got glasses so I'm hoping that will help.

Mateo is growing up too.  He is 4 years old and a little joy.  I'm learning more and more about raising little boys. lol. He won't officially start school this year but wants to start so we will try and see how it goes.

Okay, back to me.  I found out last year that I have Fibromyalgia.  I still don't feel well with lots of weakness and other weird things.  My dr. had run tests when I first got the fibro diagnosis but nothing showed up.  With all my other symptoms, she ordered more tests.  I had a MRI done on my brain which showed normal (except for sinus problems).  She also ordered a bunch of tests for the Rheumatologist.  She ordered an ANA which came back positive.  I haven't gotten to see the rheumatologist yet so I don't know what it is for sure but it's something with auto immune disorders.  I know the Lord is in control and I'm just so happy to be getting some answers.

I promise to write back again soon.  I really want to start again.

God Bless.

Today seems to be going much better.  Yesterday was a rough day with pain and then childrens church was rough dancing around but I made it through.  I slept decently last night.  I have some pain today but not as bad as the last several days.  I'm doing some laundry and trying to get stuff done around the house.

Last nigh Malakhi and I had a long talk that let do him asking me if we could pray to ask Jesus into his heart!  What a blessing!  Lonnie and I prayed with him.  He's only 4 so I don't know if he truly understands but when we asked him why he wanted to pray for that and to explain what he wanted to do he seemed to understand the concept.  I'm praying for him as he grows in the Lord and praying I can be the example the Lord wants me to be to him.

I did a devotional this morning, I tried to understand it but my brain fog is getting to me today.  I know that it was about God's grace.  I think I need to try to read it again in a little bit when the kids are in bed.

Today is an uphill battle with pain and IBS.  It's okay though cause I know my strength is in the LORD.  I just wish I could have the answers as to what is going on.  I know I will soon.  May 25th at the latest.

The remnant...A small remaining quantity of something.

The people God saved from destruction.  He saves us from destruction.  He will come to take us home before He destroys the earth.  Lord thank You for that simple truth.

I know my posts are odd.  It's all okay though.  I just keep trusting the Lord in all I'm going through.  That's why I'm tying this all together.  Even though I don't feel good, I know His hand is upon me and will bring me through.

Well, today the pain hasn't been quite as bad.  It's more dizziness and just feeling out of it.  I still hurt in my shoulders and hip/back but just feel more confused and lost today.  It's hard to describe.  As for my walk with the Lord, I'm really struggling.  I guess I'm too busy worrying about test results.  I think after I turn the burgers, I will read my bible.

Okay, I had my devotion.  Right now all my devotions are on God's grace.  I thank God for His grace and His love.  I am so grateful that when I run away and hide, he seeks me out and he's standing right beside me.  He never leaves me.  He's standing there waiting for me to look up and say, "Daddy, please help."  So here I am Daddy, please help...

I think I'm going to start blogging how I'm feeling and my walk with God.  This blog keeps changing.  Sorry. LOL

Well, today I'm not feeling good at all.  I have a headache.  My shoulders and back hurt bad.  Tylenol barely touched it but oh well.  I'm irritable.  Trying not to get frustrated.  I guess it's time for me to be honest about how I'm feeling instead of hiding it all the time.  I'm hoping this blog will help me keep track of what's going on with my body.

As for my walk with God, I still need to do my devotion today.  I read a friends blog about how she prayed and was close to God that day.  I need to set aside time to pray.  It's hard when I've got the boys running around and begging my attention.  I love them very much.  When they need me I go to them.  When they nap, I try to rest or sleep so I can feel better.  I need to turn that time into prayer and devotion time or try to get up earlier to spend time with God.  Ugh, why do I constantly battle with it?

Well, I guess it's been a while since I posted.  I've had a lot going on.

 Mateo's diagnosis' have changed from Autism, to Sensory Processing Disorder, to Apraxia, to PDD-NOS, and we are still waiting to find out more and if he will qualify for services through the school district.  We have an IEP scheduled for May 9th. 

Malakhi will be starting school in August.  We are trying to get all the paperwork filled out to mail in.  I can't believe how big he is getting so fast.

Lonnie is graduating from MSJC on May 31st!  I'm so proud of him.  He's now playing on the worship team at church for main, youth, and mens.

I am singing with the childrens worship team and loving it.  I waited a while before jumping into ministry because I didn't know where the Lord wanted me.

I went to a new Dr today.  I've been having a lot of pain and fatigue.  My last Dr. told me it's because I have young kids and I couldn't swallow that.  After seeing my new Dr, she said she has young kids and she doesn't feel this way so she is running tests.  She is test to look for autoimmune disorders.  If something shows up they will know how to treat it.  If nothing shows up, it is probably Fibromyalgia and will be able to treat that.  I'm glad to finally be getting some answers.  I have to wait till May 25th for my next appt to go over the results.  I wish it was sooner but it's all good and God is in control!