Today seems to be going much better.  Yesterday was a rough day with pain and then childrens church was rough dancing around but I made it through.  I slept decently last night.  I have some pain today but not as bad as the last several days.  I'm doing some laundry and trying to get stuff done around the house.

Last nigh Malakhi and I had a long talk that let do him asking me if we could pray to ask Jesus into his heart!  What a blessing!  Lonnie and I prayed with him.  He's only 4 so I don't know if he truly understands but when we asked him why he wanted to pray for that and to explain what he wanted to do he seemed to understand the concept.  I'm praying for him as he grows in the Lord and praying I can be the example the Lord wants me to be to him.

I did a devotional this morning, I tried to understand it but my brain fog is getting to me today.  I know that it was about God's grace.  I think I need to try to read it again in a little bit when the kids are in bed.

Today is an uphill battle with pain and IBS.  It's okay though cause I know my strength is in the LORD.  I just wish I could have the answers as to what is going on.  I know I will soon.  May 25th at the latest.

The remnant...A small remaining quantity of something.

The people God saved from destruction.  He saves us from destruction.  He will come to take us home before He destroys the earth.  Lord thank You for that simple truth.

I know my posts are odd.  It's all okay though.  I just keep trusting the Lord in all I'm going through.  That's why I'm tying this all together.  Even though I don't feel good, I know His hand is upon me and will bring me through.

Well, today the pain hasn't been quite as bad.  It's more dizziness and just feeling out of it.  I still hurt in my shoulders and hip/back but just feel more confused and lost today.  It's hard to describe.  As for my walk with the Lord, I'm really struggling.  I guess I'm too busy worrying about test results.  I think after I turn the burgers, I will read my bible.

Okay, I had my devotion.  Right now all my devotions are on God's grace.  I thank God for His grace and His love.  I am so grateful that when I run away and hide, he seeks me out and he's standing right beside me.  He never leaves me.  He's standing there waiting for me to look up and say, "Daddy, please help."  So here I am Daddy, please help...

I think I'm going to start blogging how I'm feeling and my walk with God.  This blog keeps changing.  Sorry. LOL

Well, today I'm not feeling good at all.  I have a headache.  My shoulders and back hurt bad.  Tylenol barely touched it but oh well.  I'm irritable.  Trying not to get frustrated.  I guess it's time for me to be honest about how I'm feeling instead of hiding it all the time.  I'm hoping this blog will help me keep track of what's going on with my body.

As for my walk with God, I still need to do my devotion today.  I read a friends blog about how she prayed and was close to God that day.  I need to set aside time to pray.  It's hard when I've got the boys running around and begging my attention.  I love them very much.  When they need me I go to them.  When they nap, I try to rest or sleep so I can feel better.  I need to turn that time into prayer and devotion time or try to get up earlier to spend time with God.  Ugh, why do I constantly battle with it?

Well, I guess it's been a while since I posted.  I've had a lot going on.

 Mateo's diagnosis' have changed from Autism, to Sensory Processing Disorder, to Apraxia, to PDD-NOS, and we are still waiting to find out more and if he will qualify for services through the school district.  We have an IEP scheduled for May 9th. 

Malakhi will be starting school in August.  We are trying to get all the paperwork filled out to mail in.  I can't believe how big he is getting so fast.

Lonnie is graduating from MSJC on May 31st!  I'm so proud of him.  He's now playing on the worship team at church for main, youth, and mens.

I am singing with the childrens worship team and loving it.  I waited a while before jumping into ministry because I didn't know where the Lord wanted me.

I went to a new Dr today.  I've been having a lot of pain and fatigue.  My last Dr. told me it's because I have young kids and I couldn't swallow that.  After seeing my new Dr, she said she has young kids and she doesn't feel this way so she is running tests.  She is test to look for autoimmune disorders.  If something shows up they will know how to treat it.  If nothing shows up, it is probably Fibromyalgia and will be able to treat that.  I'm glad to finally be getting some answers.  I have to wait till May 25th for my next appt to go over the results.  I wish it was sooner but it's all good and God is in control!